Unit 8

The two practices that I think are the most helpful is the Subtle Mind Meditation, and the Loving Kindness exercise in daily life. I like the subtle mind the most, I enjoy how it makes my mind stay on topic in the current time, place and space. Often times I think that we, as human beings, always have our thoughts brooding deep in the past, or in the  stress, worry and "what ifs?" of the future. We often times forget just to be. To enjoy the good and the bad as it comes and goes. I want to maintain my own balance and become my own rock, this is why I like the Subtle Mind Meditation.

The other practice session that I enjoyed was the Loving Kindness exercise. Quite honestly, while in this class, my emotions have gotten the better of me. It seems like once a dicision is made to start bettering yourself, the worst kind of situations come up, that seems to bring out the worst person you are inside. I blew up at this lady for doing something that I thought was morally wrong, and for taking advantage of my privious ignorance. I was feeling totally ripped off. So I blow up at this lady, and I am suprised that this woman did not call the cops on me for verbal assult, granted I used to be in the army. After that incident I really do not like the idea of my emotions getting the better of me. Not to even mention the fact that I did not treat that women the way I would have liked to be treated. 

I no longer want to be a pawn to my own emotions and wandering thoughts, I want to enjoy the present and the here and now. Every day is a chance to practice loving kindness, towards myself, my significant other, and family as well as to treat everyone else that same way, to extend love, peace and harmony. As for my subtle mind meditation, I now do self checks occassionally to see where I am and what I am worrying about and wether or not I even have any control over the situation. I see where I am, take a deep breath and  pause and enjoy what is for what it is.

Just some thoughts,

Rebekah